Its 4 in the morning & I can't sleep. I close my eyes and they just keep opening. So many things keep running through my head. So many things keep flashing through my mind. I want so many things. I want so much more out of life then what I'm getting right now. I have so many wishes and dreams that I just want NOW. In retrospect I want the same things I have always wanted. Nothing much has really changed. I've just developed those wishes and dreams into maturity. I want to settle down. I want to start a family. I want to graduate. I just want to start my "future" already. But I feel like my "future" is so far away. I need and want it to come quicker. But I'm going to sleep now...or at least going to try to.