Self Destruction

I don't quite believe in Luck or Jinxes. I'm not sure exactly where I stand on those 2 things. I believe that you make your own luck. If you are a good person, good comes to you. If you are bad, that's exactly what you get in return. But I do believe you can ruin your happiness, which is what seems to be happening to me now. Everything is the same as it was 3 weeks ago when I was perfectly happy and content. But now all of a sudden my mind is a hurricane of thoughts and emotions and its ruining my happiness. And the crazy part is I don't know how or why. I can't quite pin point the thing that is making me so miserable. I just am. I need to learn how to allow myself to be happy with out self destructing.

I need to realize that I am fully deserving& capable of happiness.

I'm BACK!!! =)

I haven't written in here in a VERY long time and I think it's about time I start again.

My life is at a COMPLETELY different place from this time last year & I am FOREVER grateful for that. It is WONDERFUL how different my life has turned out to be.

I'm starting a new job in a few days, I'm back in school but with a different major& school, I have a WONDERFUL boyfriend, my family is great.

Everything is wonderful.

I am so happy.